Category Archives: confidence

Advice from a half-broken, but not giving up, late-blooming lesbian

My 22-year old daughter looks at me with a mixture of guilt and “but I’m grown and I can do what I want” on her face when I ask her if she was smoking weed on the porch. I don’t … Continue reading

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Take off

I have spread my gay-ass wings as far as I can in secret. I’ve lived one life in the open and another behind a dark curtain for years. That does not come without consequences. In the next few weeks, I … Continue reading

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the hump

I’m a 70s/ 80’s kid from a pretty large extended family. Growing up I had cousins as far as the eye could see. And somehow our parents had planned their child bearing perfectly, so I had about 7 cousins who all fell … Continue reading

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Felix in a 3D — Randomness #5

I created this blog as a very private and very personal way to get my racing thoughts out of my brain and into a space where they could exist unhindered. Over the years, I have come here to wallow in heartache, revel in … Continue reading

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Sharing a beautiful becoming…

Blessed Love, writes from a place that few of us can. With her pen, she is unflinchingly bold, as fearless and graceful as an assassin. A flourish exposes raw nerve. A gentle stroke reveals blood and gristle. One sentence is a … Continue reading

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"uncorrected" in retrospect

UNCORRECTED How many times can I be wrong? Only months ago, weeks even…perhaps days.  Hours? Lost in feelings for you so deep that I heard love songs in my head non-stop. You took my breath away. Etched your name across … Continue reading

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Why I would not wish this situation on my worst enemy

There is nothing cool or trendy about coming out later in life; especially when you’ve already established a life…complete with children a husband and a stable, settled home. It’s one thing to stand on the edge of a precipice and … Continue reading

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Figuring it out on my own…

There is really no one that I can talk to about this shit. I love my friends and although I seek their opinions on some things, I don’t look to them for advice when it comes to my personal life. … Continue reading

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A Lesson in Black & White

My mom was a strong lady. Crazy strong. Like show-no-fear, put-the-world-on-a-leash strong. Or maybe it was just me that was on a leash. It wasn’t that I felt the need to please her. Or maybe I did. I just wanted to … Continue reading

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Giving In

This weekend I was supposed to do something empowering and freeing. I had planned on attending a weekend of workshops for late-blooming lesbians who were married to men. It’s a yearly event. I wasn’t able to go last year, but … Continue reading

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